Aloha aloha me ka hoa aloha o ke kāne
Aloha au, makemake au, makemake au i ka hoa a kaʻu kāne. Makemake ʻo ia iaʻu. He aha e hana ai?
Ua male wau ma kahi o ʻelima mau makahiki i kēia manawa. ʻElua a māua keikikāne a me ʻelua kaikamahine. He hoaaloha kā Pavel, ʻo Pasha kona inoa. Lohe wau e pili ana iā ia no kekahi manawa lōʻihi, akā ʻaʻole naʻe wau i ʻike i kekahi i kekahi. A laila, i kekahi lā kupaianaha, haʻi mai kaʻu kāne iaʻu ʻo nā inoa like, kahi āna i kamaʻilio nui ai, e hiki mai iā mākou i kekahi mau lā. ʻAʻole au i hoʻomanawanui, makemake wau e nānā wikiwiki i kēlā hoa aloha o kuʻu Paul. Mahalo mau ke kāne iā ia. I kahi nui i manaʻo ʻole ai ua ola kēlā mau kāne. Ua hōʻea ko Pasha hoaaloha i kakahiaka nui ma ke kaʻaahi. Lawe ʻo ia i kahi likiki i ka lumi, no ka mea ʻaʻole ia i makemake i nā noho i waiho ʻia. Aloha wale ʻo ia i ka hōʻoluʻolu i nā mea āpau. ʻOiaʻiʻo, ua hoʻolako mākou i nā kūlana no ka malihini aloha i loko o kā mākou keʻena. ʻAʻole ʻo ia e namunamu. A no laila ʻo wau, e like me ke kaikamahine liʻiliʻi, aloha aku me ka hoaaloha o kaʻu kāne!
He kāne aha ia! ʻAneʻane wau i lilo i ka noʻonoʻo ke ʻike wau iā ia. A mihi maoli wau no ka ʻokoʻa loa o kaʻu kāne. He hewa ia e ʻōlelo ai, akā ma ka ʻoiaʻiʻo. ʻOi aku ka maikaʻi a me ka hilinaʻi o ka hoaaloha o kaʻu kāne ma mua o kaʻu Pasha. I kēlā manawa ua minamina nui wau i ka hiki ʻole ke kūʻai ʻia kekahi i kekahi. A ʻo wau, no koʻu nāwaliwali, hiamoe me Pasha, kahi hoa o kaʻu kāne. ʻAe, ua hana wau. A ... hāpai ʻo ia. Akā ʻaʻole wau e haʻi iā ia e pili ana i ka hāpai keiki. Makemake wau e manaʻo kaʻu kāne ʻo kāna keiki kēia. Ua moeʻuhane ʻo ia i kahi keiki kāne nui. ʻAe, a makemake nui wau i keiki. Aloha nui wau i kaʻu pēpē, ʻaʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke noʻonoʻo pehea! Hānau ʻia kaʻu keiki, mahalo i ke Akua, he pēpē olakino a maikaʻi hoʻi. ʻIke wau ua hewa wau, no laila noi pinepine wau i ke Akua no ke kōkua. Lana koʻu manaʻo e kala mai ʻo ia iaʻu.
ʻAʻole ʻike ke kāne e pili ana i kekahi mea, a ʻaʻole ʻike. Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole ia e kuhi, a kūpono ʻole ia. Aloha nui ʻo ia i ke keiki kāne ʻo Styopka, no laila ʻaʻole wau e huhū iā ia. He wahaheʻe nui wau. Akā wahaheʻe wau no ka maikaʻi. He makua kāne kupaianaha ʻo Pasha. Me ia, manaʻo kaʻu keiki e like me ke kāne, ikaika a akamai. ʻO ko Pasha hoaaloha, ka mea i lilo i makuakāne o kaʻu keiki, i hele ma kahi mamao loa i kahi huakaʻi ʻoi loa. Nona, he mau manaʻo koʻu i hiki ʻole ke hoʻohālikelike ʻia me kekahi mea, ʻo wau, he kaikamahine ʻōpio, hele a puni ka maka iā ia. Nui koʻu hauʻoli no kāna keiki mai kāna keiki. Hoʻomehana kēia mau manaʻo iaʻu i kēlā mau manawa paʻakikī iaʻu. Ke ulu ʻo Stepan, e haʻi maoli wau iā ia ʻo wai kona makuakāne maoli. A i kēia manawa ua wanaʻao loa, ʻaʻole nō ʻo ia e maopopo. He liʻiliʻi ʻo ia, ʻaʻole ia i nā pilikia o nā mākua i kēia manawa, hoihoi wale ʻo ia i nā mea pāʻani. A i kekahi manawa, ke ʻaʻole kaʻu kāne ma ka home, kamaʻilio wau me kaʻu keiki, wehewehe pehea a me nā mea e hana ai i nā ola o nā mākua. A mū wale ʻo ia i kekahi mea i kāna ʻōlelo ponoʻī i kaʻu mau ʻōlelo, ʻakaʻaka paha ʻo ia. Pehea ka maikaʻi o ke keiki liʻiliʻi! ʻAʻohe o lākou pilikia.
Manaʻo pinepine wau e pili ana iā Pasha, i kekahi manawa hopohopo nui wau e pili ana iā ia ma mua o kaʻu kāne. ʻOiaʻiʻo ke hana hewa nei wau, akā ʻaʻole wau e hūnā iā ia i koʻu ola a pau. ʻAʻole wau e haʻalele iā Pavel, akā i loko o koʻu puʻuwai e moeʻuhane wau e noho me kāna hoaaloha namesake. ʻOi aku ka pololei, ke ola nei wau, akā i nā moemoeā wale nō. I kekahi manawa lawe loa kēia mau moeʻuhane iaʻu. A paʻakikī loa e hoʻi i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo.
He paʻakikī loa ke aloha a hāmau. Makemake wau e walaʻau e pili ana i kuʻu aloha. Makemake wau e haʻi iā Pasha nāna kēia keiki. I kekahi manawa moeʻuhane wau e ʻaihue ʻo ia i kaʻu keiki a me aʻu, lawe malu. Nui koʻu makemake, akā ʻaʻole loaʻa iaʻu kekahi mea, ola wau e like me kēia me nā manaʻolana a me nā moeʻuhane a ʻike ʻole wau i kahi ala i waho. E ʻike paha wau i ka mea me ia, pehea ʻo ia, a inā e hele koke mai ʻo ia i ko mākou kūlanakauhale i kekahi lā. Makemake wau e nānā iā ia me ka maka hoʻokahi. E ʻike a hoʻomaopopo i ke kumu o koʻu aloha nui ʻana me kēia kanaka, no ke aha ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke ola i kahi lā me ka noʻonoʻo ʻole iā ia.
Akā ʻaʻole ia e hoʻolaha ʻia. A makaʻu wau e nīnau i kaʻu kāne. Kū koke ʻo ia e koho. ʻAʻole hiki iā mākou ke kamaʻilio e pili ana iā Pasha me kaʻu kāne. ʻAʻole wau makemake e noʻonoʻo e pili ana i ka mea hiki iā ia ke hana inā ʻike ʻo ia. He mea nui ia iaʻu ʻaʻole ia e kānalua iaʻu, a ʻaʻole mākou e hōʻino e pili ana i kēia. Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole e lohe kaʻu keiki i kā mākou hakakā. Maikaʻi loa ke kāhea ʻia kaʻu kāne e ka inoa like me ke kāne aloha. A laila kupu koke mai ka inoa "hewa". A weliweli paha e noʻonoʻo e pili ana i ka hopena i ka hopena. Nui lili kaʻu kāne. Loaʻa maikaʻi ʻole ʻo ia i kāna lili. Makemake wau e holo i kāna lili. Akā ʻaʻohe wahi e holo ai, noho wau a haʻi ʻole i kekahi mea.
Manaʻo wau e pepehi ʻo ia i kāna hoaaloha inā ʻike ʻo ia ka makuakāne o ke keiki. ʻAʻole wau makemake e hana kēia. A hoʻopaneʻe wau i ka manawa o ka ʻoiaʻiʻo e like me ka hiki. Aia a hiki i kēia manawa. Noho au ma ka hale, akā lili mau kaʻu kāne. ʻAʻole wau e hele ma kahi āpau! He aha ka lili?! ʻOi aku ka pololei, iā wai? I ka poʻe hele ma ke alanui? ʻO ka leʻaleʻa loa. Akā i kekahi manawa, ke hiki mai kahi o ka absurdity, ʻaʻole ia he mea hoʻomākeʻaka hou.
I koʻu male ʻana, maopopo iaʻu he lili nui ʻo Pasha. Akā a hiki i koʻu hālāwai ʻana me kāna hoaaloha, ua like ia me aʻu ka moeʻuhane o koʻu ola holoʻokoʻa. ʻOiai ua ʻōlelo koʻu makuakāne ua aʻo ʻia nā mea āpau i ke ola e ka hoʻohālikelike ʻana. A i kēia manawa ʻae loa wau me ia! Ua hoʻohālikelike wau a ʻike wau ʻaʻole wau i aloha iki i kaʻu kāne, akā aloha i kāna hoa aloha.
He ola! He aha ke ola? He huaʻōlelo wale nō, akā pehea ka nui o ka manaʻo i loko. A pehea ka liʻiliʻi e hiki ai iā mākou ke hoʻololi i kekahi mea i loko. A ʻaʻole kēia ka manawa e noʻonoʻo pono ai. A no laila makemake wau e hāʻawi i kahi mea ʻano ʻole a akamai. Ke aʻo ʻana e hele i ke kula puka kula, a i ʻole kekahi mea ... I kēia manawa, e moeʻuhane wale nō wau. Maliʻa paha, paha ... A puni kahi kānalua i ka manaʻo. Akā i kēia manawa ʻokoʻa loa kaʻu mau hopohopo. A lawe kēia mau hopohopo i koʻu manawa kaʻawale āpau. ʻAʻole wau hiamoe nui. ʻAʻole lawa wau i ka hiamoe, ʻoiai ʻo ka poʻe a puni iaʻu ʻike i nā pōʻai ma lalo o koʻu mau maka i ʻike ʻia mai ka hiamoe ʻole. Kū hou ka nīnau: ma hea e loaʻa ai iaʻu ke kālā no ke kaha ʻana i ka plastic e lilo i nani? Pono wau e noi iā Pasha inā hiki iā ia ke hāʻawi iaʻu i kāna mālama kālā.
Nalu pinepine wau i ka Pūnaewele, i nā manawa a pau e nānā ana i ka makuakāne o kaʻu keiki, manaʻo wau e loaʻa paha wau ma laila. Akā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke loaʻa. ʻAʻole makemake paha ʻo ia e loaʻa. A hoʻomau wau i ka hoʻāʻo. He aha ke kumu? ʻAe, no Styopka ma ka liʻiliʻi. ʻAe, ʻaʻole wau e wahaheʻe, ʻoiaʻiʻo, ʻoi aku wau iaʻu iho. Nui koʻu minamina iā ia. Noho wale ʻo ia i koʻu mau manaʻo āpau.
Pehea ka luhi o nā mea āpau! ʻAʻole wau i mālama iaʻu iho. I ka lilo ʻana o ka iole i hina, ʻaʻole ia e like me ka wahine iki. Pono ʻoe e hoʻomaka e nānā iā ʻoe iho! No ke aha i hāʻule loa ai koʻu mau lima? Ke inaina nei wau iaʻu iho. A pehea e kū mau ai kaʻu kāne iaʻu? A ma hope o nā mea āpau, ʻaʻole au i lohe i kahi huaʻōlelo maikaʻi ʻole mai iā ia i koʻu ala. Kahaha au iā ia. No laila, i kēia manawa e lawe wau i kahi ʻeke hoʻohanohano, e wehe au. Damn, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke loaʻa i kekahi mea kūpono iā ia, pani wau iā ia, a laila wehe hou au iā ia a pēlā nō hoʻi i ka pōʻai. Ke hopohopo nei wau. Makemake wau e ʻike i koʻu kiʻi ponoʻī, akā ʻaʻole hiki. Ua nalowale ma kahi. A ʻaʻole kōkua ke aniani iaʻu. Auē, pehea lā e mālama ʻole ʻia ai? Pono pono e mālama iā ʻoe iho i nā manawa a pau, ʻaʻole wale i ka wā e ʻaʻahu ana i kahi. ʻAno ʻē ʻaʻole wau i noʻonoʻo e pili ana iā ia ma mua.
Ua kūʻai mai nei kaʻu kāne iaʻu i kuahiwi holoʻokoʻa o nā mea hoʻonani āpau. Ua hauʻoli loa wau me ia a ua hoʻoholo wau e ʻoluʻolu iā Pasha pū kekahi. ʻO nā maka i lele me nā aka a me nā lipsticks. Akā huki wau iaʻu iho, a laila maʻa mau koʻu mau maka i kēia huhū. A hoʻomaka wau e kau i kahi "marafet" ma koʻu alo. I ka hoʻi ʻana mai o Pasha mai ka hana, ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ʻike iaʻu a ua pīhoihoi ʻo ia. ʻLelo ʻo ia ua haʻaheo loa ʻo ia ua noho kēlā nani me ia. Akā ʻike ʻoe, maopopo iaʻu iho a manaʻoʻiʻo ia! Inā ʻoe e manaʻoʻiʻo, a laila, pēlā nō nā mea āpau. Ua ʻike wau ma mua he uʻi wau. Hoʻokuʻu liʻiliʻi ʻia ke kiʻi, ua ola wau ma hope o ka hānau ʻana. Akā hiki ke hoʻopaʻa ʻia kēia. E lilo koke wau i pēpē, ʻaʻole ʻoe maopopo.
Aloha au i kekahi, akā noho wau me kekahi. ʻAʻole wau makemake e ola i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo. Makemake au i loko o nā ao i nā manawa āpau. ʻAʻohe aʻu koho e hiki ai ke ʻōlelo me kaʻu makana. A kōkua ke keikikāne e hoʻomaha. He hauʻoli nui iaʻu he keiki kaʻu naʻu. A hauʻoli ʻo ia i kona ʻano makuahine i aloha iā ia ma mua o nā mea āpau. ʻAʻole maopopo iki iā ia, akā e hiki mai ana ka manawa, a e ʻike ʻo ia i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo e pili ana i ka makuahine a me ka makuakāne.