No ke aha i aloha ai ka wahine i ka wahine?
ʻAʻole, mai noʻonoʻo, ʻaʻole wau pupule. ʻO ia wale nō ... akā paʻakikī ... Ma ka laulā, ua ulu koʻu ola i kekahi ʻano mosaic ʻano ʻē.
Makemake wau i nā wahine! Ae 'ae! A makemake nui wau iā lākou. A ʻaʻole ia e hoʻopilikia iaʻu no ka wahine pū kekahi. Eia nō naʻe, huikau nui kēia i ke kaiāulu ... No laila, hūnā wau ʻaʻole wau e nānā ʻole i ka poʻe o ka like kāne. A no laila ua aloha wau i kahi wahine.
He paʻakikī loa ua aloha wau i kekahi o nā wahine. ʻAʻole, ʻaʻole kēlā. Ua aloha wau i ka mea maoli. Pehea wau e haʻi aku ai iā ia i kēia? ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu. A he mea pono anei e ʻōlelo? ʻO kēia wahine koʻu hoaaloha nui, aloha nui ʻo ia iaʻu, ʻoiai he hoa aloha. A ʻaʻole wau makemake e nalo iki iā ia. Akā ʻike maopopo nō wau ke hōʻike koke wau iā ia e pili ana i koʻu mau manaʻo, ʻaʻole hiki iā mākou ke ʻike hou kekahi i kekahi, kamaʻilio e like me ma mua. ʻAʻole ʻo ia i male. Akamai loa ʻo ia, a ʻo ka mea nui, nani pupule. ʻAʻole wau e manaʻolana no kekahi mea, no ka mea ʻike maopopo wau he kūpana maʻamau ka mea aʻu e aloha ai. A ʻaʻohe oʻu kuleana e hoʻokolokolo iā ia no kēlā. ʻO Marianne ka inoa o kaʻu aloha, ʻaʻole ia he inoa aloha? He hana mana wale nō ia. Me he mea lā ua iho mai ʻo ia mai ka lani. A kūpono ʻo ia i ka hauʻoli nui o ke kanaka. No laila, ʻaʻole wau e hoʻokau iā ia i kaʻu mau ipo wahine.
I kekahi manawa nalowale loa wau i ke koho, he aha kaʻu e hana pono ai? Ke poina nei iā Marianne - ʻaʻole, ʻaʻole hiki, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ... hiki ke haʻi iā ia i nā mea āpau ... ʻAʻole, mahalo! ʻAʻole kūpono kēia koho. Pau paha ke kamaʻilio pū ʻana me ia? Inā ʻaʻole ʻo ia ʻo koʻu hoaaloha maikaʻi loa, inā paha ua hana wau pēlā.
Ke noʻonoʻo nei wau iā ia i nā manawa āpau, ua aloha nui wau, ʻaʻole i hiki iaʻu. Hoʻopilikia loa kēia mau manaʻo iaʻu. Pehea e pau ai kēia mau manaʻo e pili ana iā ia? I kekahi manawa inaina wale wau iaʻu iho no kēia nāwaliwali! Akā ʻo koʻu inaina e maʻalahi ai iaʻu ʻaʻole e lilo. A ʻaʻole e nalo nā moemoeā na lākou iho. ʻOiaʻiʻo ua hoʻāʻo wau i nā manawa he nui. Akā, ua makehewa kēia mau hoʻāʻo ʻana, ʻaʻohe oʻu mana?! Hoʻopau ka ikaika a me ka naʻau.
I ka manawa aʻu i heluhelu ai i kahi moʻolelo hoihoi e pili ana i ka ʻelua mau wahine aloha wahine leʻaleʻa, e hoʻāʻo nei i nā ala like ʻole, hoʻoholo e loaʻa he pēpē. A ua hoʻopaʻa inoa lākou i kā lākou male. Auē, laki kekahi, akā no kekahi kumu, ʻaʻole naʻu wale nō. A minamina nui wau ʻaʻole wau kekahi o lākou…. ʻAʻole, ʻaʻole lili wau iā lākou. ʻAʻohe pili ka lili me ia. Makemake wau e hōʻike i kahi laʻana, maoli, kanaka, ka mea ʻoiaʻiʻo, ʻaʻole naʻe me aʻu.
ʻAe, he wahine wahine wau. A hoʻolaha ākea wau i kaʻu mau hoaaloha, o lilo lākou i mea haʻalulu a haʻalulu hoʻi ma hope. ʻO wau wale nō mai koʻu mau mākua hūnā wau i nā mea āpau. ʻAʻole wau makemake e hōʻeha iā lākou, e loaʻa iā lākou ka ʻike paʻakikī loa ... ʻAʻohe makuahine, e like me kaʻu e manaʻo nei, e hiki ke ola i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo ʻaʻole like kāna kaikamahine aloha a kaikamahine wale nō me ka hapa nui o ka poʻe. He mea weliweli ke noʻonoʻo e pili ana i koʻu makuakāne.
Ua aloha au i kekahi wahine i hoʻokahi manawa. Akā ma kekahi manawa ua kū kā mākou mau hālāwai, ʻoiai ua noho ʻo ia me kekahi wahine ʻeono mau makahiki a ʻaʻole ʻo ia e haʻalele iā ia naʻu. He mea hōʻino loa ... He mea hōʻino ia, akā ʻaʻole ʻeha iki, no ka mea, i kēlā manawa ʻaʻohe oʻu manaʻo e like me ke aloha a me ke aloha. ʻO nā mea āpau wale nō aʻu i manaʻo ai nona. I ka manawa i hele aku ai kāna hoaaloha i kahi huakaʻi ʻoihana, hoʻomaka kaʻu kelepona e haki mai nā kelepona a me nā sms. Kāhea ʻo ia a kākau iaʻu iaʻu, ka mea i haʻalele ʻia me kāna mea aloha ʻole no kekahi manawa, "hoʻoulu" iaʻu me nā leka hoihoi. Akā ʻaʻole wau he naʻaupō e manaʻoʻiʻo iā ia. ʻAʻole ʻo "Ke kahua mokulele ʻē aʻe" kaʻu hihia. ʻAno hauʻoli wale wau. Akā ʻaʻole au makemake e hele hou ma laila: ʻoi aku ka nui o ke ola o kēia ola ma mua o ka poho. He mea maikaʻi loa iaʻu e hoʻolōʻihi i ka manawa i kahi moe me ia, akā hoʻomanaʻo mau wau e pau mau ana ka maikaʻi.
Ua hoʻāʻo nō wau e kūkulu i kekahi ʻano pilina me hoʻokahi kāne. ʻO ia kekahi o nā ʻano, ʻoiai ua lawa kēlā me aʻu. He mea hoʻopailua loa wau i ka moeʻuhane e nalo wale nā kāne āpau o ka honua a ʻo nā wahine wale nō ka mea e koe. Minamina ia, akā hiki ʻole kēia. Akā ke hoʻohālua nei nā kāne a puni iaʻu, me he mea lā ua hamo ʻia wau i ka meli, a he pi lākou. ʻĀ, pehea e hiki ai iaʻu ke wehewehe iā lākou ʻaʻole hoihoi lākou iaʻu, me he mea lā ua uhi lākou i ko lākou mau pepeiao me ko lākou mau lima a lohe ʻole iaʻu.
Ua haʻi pinepine wau i nā mea mahalo i ka poʻe mahalo ʻole wau i ka ʻike like, ke hele nei lākou i ke ala kūpono ʻole e pono ai lākou e hele. ʻOkoʻa ka hopena o kēlā me kēia. Ua manaʻo ka hapa nui o kaʻu mea hoʻomākeʻaka kēia. ʻAʻole i manaʻoʻiʻo kekahi i kaʻu mau ʻōlelo. Ehia mau manawa aʻu i hoʻāʻo ai e hoʻololi i koʻu ʻano iaʻu iho, i kekahi poʻe ʻē aʻe, a lilo i kanaka maʻamau. Ua pani wau iaʻu iho mai ke kaiāulu, ua hoʻāʻo wau e hoʻopoina iaʻu iho, ua kāpae i kēia pilikia e ka mehameha. Akā ʻaʻole au i lōʻihi: hāʻawi mau wau. ʻĀ, ʻaʻole kaʻu mea e mehameha ai. Kaumaha mau kēia moku iaʻu! E like me ka hana ʻino loa a ka poʻe. Ua aloha au i kahi wahine! No ke aha e hiki ai i nā kāne ke aloha iā ia, akā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu? A inā he pono, e hōʻoia nō wau i kēlā me kēia mea he nui ke kāne i loko oʻu. I kēia manawa ʻaʻohe mea nui o kaʻu mau hōʻoia.
Akā aloha nui wau i kēia kaikamahine nani ʻo Marianne! A kuʻi wale koʻu puʻuwai i ala wale wau i kēlā me kēia kakahiaka a ʻike iā ia no kekahi manawa poina ʻole. Hauʻoli wale wau i hiki iaʻu ke ʻoluʻolu i kāna hui i kēlā me kēia lā, kamaʻilio pū me ia ... Ke leʻaleʻa nei e kamaʻilio i kā mākou cafe punahele, ʻaʻole mākou e ʻike i ka manawa. E lele ia me ka ʻike ʻole ʻia! I kēlā me kēia ala! He mea nui ia iaʻu he mau manawa kahi aʻu e makemake ai e ola. Makemake wau e pili kokoke iā ia. He mea hauʻoli loa iaʻu e pili kokoke ana i kaʻu wahine aloha, akā ʻeha loa ke ʻike ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hoʻopā i kona ʻili palupalu. ʻAʻole loa ... He weliweli a ʻeha hoʻi. Makemake wau e ʻuwē i ka ʻeha a uē no ka nele. ʻIke wau ʻaʻohe manaʻolana iki. ʻAʻohe kumu e kānalua ai i kēia, a maopopo kēia.
ʻAʻole wau e hōʻoia iaʻu iho, a ʻaʻole wau makemake i kekahi e hōʻoia iaʻu ma ka ʻōlelo ʻana he lana ka manaʻo ... ʻO ia wale nō i kekahi manawa makemake wau e ʻike i kahi ʻike o ke kanaka i nā ʻuhane o ka poʻe. A ma aneʻi e ʻike ʻia kahi pilikia nui: aia kekahi poʻe i ʻūpau ʻole i ka pōʻino o haʻi. ʻO ka poʻe "ʻuhane ʻole" i koʻu hoʻomaopopo ʻana kēlā poʻe ʻike ʻole a koho ʻole he aha ke aloha, ʻoiaʻiʻo, kahi āu e makemake ai e hāʻawi iā ʻoe iho. Akā he nui ka poʻe e like me ia, ke hoʻoholo nei i kā lākou mau moʻolelo ... Ua haʻi mai kēia poʻe iaʻu i kahi mea huna weliweli: noho lākou me kā lākou mea aloha, ʻaʻole aloha iki, pili wale lākou i kekahi i kekahi, a i loaʻa paha ka pōmaikaʻi i kā lākou ʻuhane. He aha nā mea lapuwale aʻu e lawe aku nei iā ʻoe ma aneʻi ... ʻAʻole ia he mea huna hou na kekahi, ua ʻike nā mea āpau i kēia no ka manawa lōʻihi. ʻAe, ʻaʻole wau e hōʻino aku i kekahi, ʻaʻole. Makemake wau e hoʻomaopopo ʻoe iaʻu, i kahi liʻiliʻi wale nō. Maliʻa paha ʻaʻohe mea e pane maikaʻi i kaʻu noi, akā ʻaʻole wau e noi. Akā ʻo wau, ʻo kekahi a i ʻole kekahi, e aloha mau wau i kuʻu Marianne! A ʻaʻohe oʻu manaʻo nui i ka manaʻo o ka poʻe iaʻu, e aloha wale wau.
Noho wau nona a e hoʻomau e ola e like me kēlā. Lana koʻu manaʻo, e like me ka mau, e hui me ia, e kali au no lākou. ʻAʻole kēia mea e pale i ko mākou kaiāulu mai ka noho ʻana i kona ola maʻamau, me ka ʻole o ka hoʻopilikia ʻana i ko haʻi ola. ʻO ka poʻe i kūlike ʻole me aʻu kou mau pilikia, akā e mau nō koʻu pilikia me aʻu. Mahalo nui wau i kou hoʻomaopopo ʻana. Makemake wau e ʻike iā ʻoe i ke ʻano o ke aloha palupalu kupaianaha aʻu e manaʻo nei. ʻO ka mea nui ka mea like, a ʻo ke koena hiki ke kūkākūkā mau ʻia a hoʻoholo ʻia. E launa i ke ʻano o ke aloha i loaʻa i nā kiʻi ʻoniʻoni ma waena o nā wahine ʻelua, e laʻa me ...